No new updates at the moment, but please remember, even when you're not seeing new footage or hearing new stories, Minneapolis (and the surrounding area of MN) is still occupied & under constant attack.
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If you can't find exactly what you're looking for, the next best thing may be to show up to *any* sort of helping people event, even if it's not run by people you envision working with long-term, because you will still be able to form connections to other people, some of whom are probably involved with other things they could also invite you to.
(Jeez. *I* sound like an infiltrator now. I'm not an infiltrator, I'm just autistic!)
Of course, having to take extra social steps to get connected sounds *exhausting* to me. So I'm not saying it's easy. I'm saying it's something that for some of us may be very hard, but it will help get us to the next level.
I have such anxiety about new social settings. I do really like meeting new people, especially people working for a better future, but it's still tough to do.
But the hardest part is getting started.
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Of course, having to take extra social steps to get connected sounds *exhausting* to me. So I'm not saying it's easy. I'm saying it's something that for some of us may be very hard, but it will help get us to the next level.
I have such anxiety about new social settings. I do really like meeting new people, especially people working for a better future, but it's still tough to do.
But the hardest part is getting started.
And like I said, don't try to volunteer to do things that will lead you into a flaming burnout.
It's very frustrating to me that I am not good at a lot of things it seems most people do with ease. I'm not just autistic! ADHD too! The executive dysfunction is off the charts!
So because I'm not good at things that "are supposed to be easy" I'm scared to enter new contexts, because I'm afraid I'll be perceived as lazy, flakey, or unwilling to help. It's one of my biggest fears.
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But not this time, motherfuckers. I'm going to show up for people in the ways *I* can. I'm not going to get mired in the supposed shame of being different (being *disabled*, in fact).
My disability means I am not good at some things that it may be expected "everyone" can do. So I need to accept that & expect other people to accept that too.
Again, the people I need to connect with will be able to grasp the concept of "invisible" disabilities. If people don't want my help because they think disability makes me "lazy", those aren't the comrades I'm looking for.
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And like I said, don't try to volunteer to do things that will lead you into a flaming burnout.
It's very frustrating to me that I am not good at a lot of things it seems most people do with ease. I'm not just autistic! ADHD too! The executive dysfunction is off the charts!
So because I'm not good at things that "are supposed to be easy" I'm scared to enter new contexts, because I'm afraid I'll be perceived as lazy, flakey, or unwilling to help. It's one of my biggest fears.
But not this time, motherfuckers. I'm going to show up for people in the ways *I* can. I'm not going to get mired in the supposed shame of being different (being *disabled*, in fact).
My disability means I am not good at some things that it may be expected "everyone" can do. So I need to accept that & expect other people to accept that too.
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Again, the people I need to connect with will be able to grasp the concept of "invisible" disabilities. If people don't want my help because they think disability makes me "lazy", those aren't the comrades I'm looking for.
I'm pretty severely disabled by AuDHD. I'm really lucky to be married to a man who helps me with some of the basics of maintenance for life that I struggle with (like eating food everyday).
I'm on here posting through shit because "focusing" on my job is a joke. I'm shit at it.
I struggle to remember things. I struggle to get up & dressed & going in the morning. I struggle to even get up the effort to take a shower sometimes.
I'm not playing on easy mode here. I still need the community.
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I'm pretty severely disabled by AuDHD. I'm really lucky to be married to a man who helps me with some of the basics of maintenance for life that I struggle with (like eating food everyday).
I'm on here posting through shit because "focusing" on my job is a joke. I'm shit at it.
I struggle to remember things. I struggle to get up & dressed & going in the morning. I struggle to even get up the effort to take a shower sometimes.
I'm not playing on easy mode here. I still need the community.
I literally *forget to drink water*. That's how not-good I am at some of the things that other people do automatically. I barely manage to drink water & feed myself if left to my own devices. (I do manage to do it, but at the expense of energy I'd really like to spend elsewhere)
Who would it help to be angry at myself for my real limitations? I am done trying to fool people into thinking I don't have a disability.
I'm also planning to start showing up for people in more ways when I can.
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I literally *forget to drink water*. That's how not-good I am at some of the things that other people do automatically. I barely manage to drink water & feed myself if left to my own devices. (I do manage to do it, but at the expense of energy I'd really like to spend elsewhere)
Who would it help to be angry at myself for my real limitations? I am done trying to fool people into thinking I don't have a disability.
I'm also planning to start showing up for people in more ways when I can.
Those things aren't contradictory. Acknowledging my limitations & leaning into my strengths is how I'm going to do this.
I am not going to carry pointless shame anymore, & I'm not going to pick up loads that are too heavy for me to carry.
That's not what anyone needs from me. They need me, giving my best, however I can.
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Going new places & meeting new people? Oh, the fucking anxiety!
Going out into the community & finding comrades? That's a little better!
But seriously, we need to get fucking *serious* about networks of care & trust now, because the fash see us helping each other as a vulnerability they can exploit.
Unfortunately I can't tell you much more practical shit here, because I don't know shit about the practicalities of op-sec, but I do know we all need to learn.
Here's my little tiny bit about op-sec I hope helps you.
If you aren't using Signal. Start using Signal. I mean for *everything* texting your family about picking up groceries? Signal. Texting your family about showing up to resistance training? Signal.
Figure out how to verify your Signal contacts. Basically in-person you scan some QR codes and then you know there's no man in the middle.
Recruit your new friends into Signal.
Do not settle for WhatsApp or Telegram.
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Those things aren't contradictory. Acknowledging my limitations & leaning into my strengths is how I'm going to do this.
I am not going to carry pointless shame anymore, & I'm not going to pick up loads that are too heavy for me to carry.
That's not what anyone needs from me. They need me, giving my best, however I can.
Y'all, we're letting go of the shame that doesn't serve us & going forward in love.
We will push ourselves when necessary. It's going to be a big push for me to get myself more connected locally. That's a hard task I have to take on. It stresses me out, it feels so difficult, but I *know* the payoff is worth it a hundredfold.
What we will not do is push ourselves unnecessarily. We will not run our giving tank down to zero. We will care for ourselves. We will honor & accept our limitations.
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Here's my little tiny bit about op-sec I hope helps you.
If you aren't using Signal. Start using Signal. I mean for *everything* texting your family about picking up groceries? Signal. Texting your family about showing up to resistance training? Signal.
Figure out how to verify your Signal contacts. Basically in-person you scan some QR codes and then you know there's no man in the middle.
Recruit your new friends into Signal.
Do not settle for WhatsApp or Telegram.
Send documents via Signal not Email.
Set your chats to have a disappearing messages timer by default. I use 4wks default but sometimes set it as low as 5min for some convos.
Get a copy of Tor Browser, and use it for research related to resistance.
DuckDuckGo has an .onion URL search link, use that in tor browser (it's a built in option I think).
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Y'all, we're letting go of the shame that doesn't serve us & going forward in love.
We will push ourselves when necessary. It's going to be a big push for me to get myself more connected locally. That's a hard task I have to take on. It stresses me out, it feels so difficult, but I *know* the payoff is worth it a hundredfold.
What we will not do is push ourselves unnecessarily. We will not run our giving tank down to zero. We will care for ourselves. We will honor & accept our limitations.
It is so hard for me to honor my limitations. I've spent nearly 3 1/2 decades burning out to meet other people's expectations.
Because "I'm sorry, I couldn't get myself out of the house" feels like it is *never* fucking valid. Not ever. "Normal people" don't struggle to keep simple social commitments, so I don't feel allowed to give myself space or not take on things that are too much for me. People are often very unkind if you are bad at things they think are easy.
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Send documents via Signal not Email.
Set your chats to have a disappearing messages timer by default. I use 4wks default but sometimes set it as low as 5min for some convos.
Get a copy of Tor Browser, and use it for research related to resistance.
DuckDuckGo has an .onion URL search link, use that in tor browser (it's a built in option I think).
Get Tor Browser on your phone as well. It works just fine on Android. It isn't possible to use on iPhones because they only allow reskinned versions of safari on iPhones.
If you can afford it, get a Pixel phone, used is fine, and install GrapheneOS on it. If you want high security for location tracking don't put google stuff in your main profile, create a profile just for google apps.
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It is so hard for me to honor my limitations. I've spent nearly 3 1/2 decades burning out to meet other people's expectations.
Because "I'm sorry, I couldn't get myself out of the house" feels like it is *never* fucking valid. Not ever. "Normal people" don't struggle to keep simple social commitments, so I don't feel allowed to give myself space or not take on things that are too much for me. People are often very unkind if you are bad at things they think are easy.
@artemis big agree, I feel like this so often- blaming myself for not being able to do something simple because I'm able to do a completely unrelated thing that is very not simple
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Get Tor Browser on your phone as well. It works just fine on Android. It isn't possible to use on iPhones because they only allow reskinned versions of safari on iPhones.
If you can afford it, get a Pixel phone, used is fine, and install GrapheneOS on it. If you want high security for location tracking don't put google stuff in your main profile, create a profile just for google apps.
On android you can use Orbot and tell it to route Signal through the tor network. So then people won't know who is sending messages by tracking IP addresses.
Finally, don't use biometric unlock on your phone. EVER. Use a pin, because cops can legally just force you to put your finger on your phone.
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On android you can use Orbot and tell it to route Signal through the tor network. So then people won't know who is sending messages by tracking IP addresses.
Finally, don't use biometric unlock on your phone. EVER. Use a pin, because cops can legally just force you to put your finger on your phone.
If you want to do research and things on a computer and you don't want it to leave any trace on your computer, get yourself a copy of TAILS OS for a USB stick. You put it on a USB stick, and then boot your windows/PC computer with it, you now route everything through Tor, have Tor browser, and nothing is saved on the USB stick. Everything you do disappears as soon as you reboot and remove the USB stick.
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It is so hard for me to honor my limitations. I've spent nearly 3 1/2 decades burning out to meet other people's expectations.
Because "I'm sorry, I couldn't get myself out of the house" feels like it is *never* fucking valid. Not ever. "Normal people" don't struggle to keep simple social commitments, so I don't feel allowed to give myself space or not take on things that are too much for me. People are often very unkind if you are bad at things they think are easy.
I'm going through a new round of accepting my disability & asserting my worth & dignity.
It is so hard sometimes, even in very accepting spaces. Even with people who have the same difficulties (internalized ableism is a trip)!
This is tough. It's tough for me to write this thread & not apologize for what a shitty, flaky, lazy person I feel I am sometimes. But no, I'm not doing that anymore & neither are you.
We are going to be so kind to ourselves. And then we are going to give the fash hell!
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If you want to do research and things on a computer and you don't want it to leave any trace on your computer, get yourself a copy of TAILS OS for a USB stick. You put it on a USB stick, and then boot your windows/PC computer with it, you now route everything through Tor, have Tor browser, and nothing is saved on the USB stick. Everything you do disappears as soon as you reboot and remove the USB stick.
My sister has ADHD and so I know, keeping track of whether you're doing "all the things" can be a big issue. So, TAILS is really nice because you can boot it up, and you're basically automatically doing all the things. And then reboot and no trace left.
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I really need to get off my ass already & find the people in my city who are preparing for this.
I'm practically a recluse & don't have a car of my own. I also don't like driving, especially at night, which in winter is most of the time.
So I've been really stressed about this, but I should listen to my own advice. I don't need to show up & try to promise help that I'm not actually in a position to give. I need the relationships, information, & training, & then we'll see what needs doing.
@artemis showing up is the first step. then you'll find out what needs doing.
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Send documents via Signal not Email.
Set your chats to have a disappearing messages timer by default. I use 4wks default but sometimes set it as low as 5min for some convos.
Get a copy of Tor Browser, and use it for research related to resistance.
DuckDuckGo has an .onion URL search link, use that in tor browser (it's a built in option I think).
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Yeah, there's a limit on size, but it's probably bigger than most email anyway. I think 20-50MB maybe
